Tomboy Blues

Going to Taiwan tonite. It's been 5 years since I last visited family there. This should be good. More good food and laughters. I will start my diet (gained about 5lbs over the holidays) after I get back from stuffing my face with nom Taiwanese food. :)

I accepted a job offer from Evri.com, a local startup in Seattle, on 12/31 :) W00T!
Zappo was a no go since it'd be ridiculous to trave to and fro between Seattle every week. I'd hate it.
This whole unemployed via getting laid off experience was actually wonderful, in that so many friends & ppl that I know via social networks have been generous and very helpful in aiding me finding a new job. In fact, almost all of my job leads were via Twitter. :) What goes around comes around - this is something I know and don't take for granted.

Now I'm just chilling and relaxing and taking a week trip to visit family in Taiwan before I jump fully back into the money-making world.  I am getting spoiled by having no meetings no interviews right now. It's great not having to work (temporarily), knowing that I already have something lined up.  I also have been a good girl the last 2.5 years by saving 6 months of "Oh Shit" fund so I don't have to bother anyone for financial assistance. The only thing that is a big boo is that my Xbox 360 after 2.5 years of purchasing it used from a friend, finally experienced the Red Ring of Death. Since I don't have cable TV, all my entertainment were thru this device (Flickr, games, dvd watching). Now I've nothing. Apparently it takes forever to get it serviced so I am just gonna go get another one so I can workout. Seriously doods, the holiday was crazy filled with fun, drinks and good food. I think for two weeks prior to NYE, I was pretty much waking up hungover every single day. My friends and friends of friends sure know how to party.

Anywho, I haz job :) I am happeh!

 

I really do think what goes around comes around.
This time it is me who is jobless, right? I had no idea the overwhelming support I'd be getting from my friends and the community in genearl.  OMFG.

Gonna be talking with Flickr and Zappos...

WHOA. WHOA. WHOA. WHOA. WHOA. WHOA.
Wish me luck people! Wish me luck...
Btw, I gotta stay in Seattle though.  So send me good ossm job finding vibes for a job that allows me to stay in Seattle. :D

Forgot to tell y'all... I was laid off like 3 weeks ago.
But have no fear :)
I've been a good girl and have saved up 6 months-ish worth of "Oh shit" fund.
I've been so effin' busy talking with recruiters, head hunters, phone interviews, in-person interviews, etc.

I got a good job offer today with a really great start up in Seattle!
I am not making any decisions until after Xmas as there are still few super cool household name companies waiting to talk with me. Yes, waiting to talk with me. :D Guess I didn't realize that I'm like hot cake!

I worked really hard on my new portfolio website, which now showcases my best works: http://www.UXKungFu.com - check it out you guys!!!

Life rocks.

For the many years that I was with my ex, I always saw myself as Piglet.
A few days ago, while IM'ing with a friend online, he called me Tigger.

Hmmph. I actually really liked it.
My friend was right. I am way more of a Tigger than I am ever a Piglet, even from when back when I was a wee little kid.

Just to show how being with the wrong person influences the way you perceive yourself to be and/or make yourself into who you really are not.

Hi everyone! I'm Tigger!

While walking to my work building from the parking lot this morning, I walked passed a dood in leather jacket.
He was smoking a cigarette and gave me a huge smile.
He said to me, "You look gorgeous today!"
I said, "Thanks" and kept walking toward my building.
About a block later, the dood apparently ran and caught up to me.

Dood: Hi! What is your name?
Me: ... ... ... ... (*hesitation) [Alixito]
Dood: My name is [K]
Dood: Do you have a boyfriend? I mean, I don't care, really, but do you have a boyfriend?
Me: No, I don't, and I don't want or need one. (if he really didn't care why the hell did he ask?)
Dood: Well, then what do you want?
Me: Nothing.
Dood: Nothing? Really? How about a big black boyfriend? (he's black, and big)
Me: I'm not looking right now.
Dood: You're not, huh? Well, if you change your mind and start looking again, I work at [blah blah blah] law firm.
Me: Are you a lawyer?
Dood: Yes, I am a lawyer. You are sooooo hot (he says this while checking out my ass). Come find me when you are ready.
Me: Hahaha OK. Sure.

I kept walking.

Good on him for being bold. But I don't date smokers. LOL

Reading a Buddhist article on dealing with jealousy, I come across this paragraph:

... it is an unrealistic expectation that any one person will be our special perfect match, like our "other half," who will complement us in all ways and with whom we can share every aspect of our lives. Such an expectation is based on the ancient Greek myth told by Plato that originally we were all wholes, who then were split in two. Somewhere "out there" is our other half; and true love is when we find and reunite with our other halves. Although this myth has become the foundation for Western romanticism, it does not refer to reality. To believe in it, like believing in the beautiful prince who will come to rescue us on a white horse, is an acquired, culturally specific phenomenon.

I agree.That's why if and when you find a person that feels just right, you do what you can to nourish it and grow it. Love is ever expanding, if you allow and welcome it.

I found out today that a previously very close friend of mine have locked down her twitter account and unfriended me in Facebook. There were previously misunderstandings but I thought we passed them because she told me that she forgave me and we were good. She even referred to me as her best friend. I guess it's all lip service. It is still hard for me to understand when people just end relationships like this so abruptly, without any explanation.

True friends are suppose to love/accept/forgive you no matter what and try work things out with you. I guess my definition of what a true friend is doesn't apply to other people's definitions and I need to realize that.

My life is full of mistakes, and I know that. But I welcome those mistakes so that I can learn from them and grow from them. I never ever do anything knowingly hurtful on purpose, ever. It's just not who I am. If you are a true friend to someone, you will do what it takes to be a true friend, even if it means telling them how they fucked up and hurt you so that they can realize and understand. Then you both can work pass this. I guess my friendship really is worth nothing to some people and it really saddens me.