Lately I've been feeling really super duper, especially after moving to my new place. I am getting a lot of stuff done, unpacking, organizing, and working out regularly. I kinda feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me since I've got my own place... all mine. I feel "me" in it and I get to make it even more "me".
I had dinner with D-Man last night and I was telling him how back in last August when he was consoling me and telling me that I will feel a lot better down the road, I was very skeptical. But he was right, I am feeling a lot better. In fact, I am wondering if I will actually be able to live with anyone again now that I enjoy so much of having my own place to go to without the distraction of another person or their things, their rules, their expectations. I understand how people would be protective of their own space now where I didn't understand before. It is in a way giving up much freedom (but I also understand the trade-offs is worth it if you're ready). Right now, I'm definitely not ready for the trade-offs. I have been given this opportunity to really grow into my own skin, realize my full potential, and have lots of silly good times with no obligations to anyone but me (and my little doggie).
A few friends of mine are working at this startup www.teachstreet.com and through it I was able to find some very interesting local classes that I've always wanted to participate in. Tonight, I am signing up for the Introduction to Hip Hop Class and possibly a sewing class (I have a sewing machine but forgot how to use it). I want to create art just for fun and just for me again like I used to do. Additionally, I want to plant some flowers in my little yard. There is just so fulfilling about growing something directly into the Earth.
In a way, I feel like I am living in the moment more easily than I ever did before. I am much happier than I ever was and I think it has a lot to do with having a greater understanding of myself and practicing looking at living beings and situations with compassion. Don't get me wrong, I still have bad days when I think about the uneventful stuff, but I feel like I can deal with it much better as I look at it from the perspective of love. The Dalai Lama is so my hero.
This item will be crossed off on April 12 when I see His Holiness at Quest Field in Seattle for the Seeds of Compassion event.
Yaye!!!