35 posts tagged “music”

Toystory2

I so relate to this song.  I do believe that everything is more beautiful (enhanced) when somebody loves me). I've loved this song since I first heard it in Toy Story 2.

When She Loved Me by Sarah McLachlan

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she’d say "I will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she’d look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me.

In sixth grade outdoor education week, I learned the following song when I didn't know much English. Miraculously, I remembered most of the words.  Anyone else know of this song?

Nobody Likes Me

Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Going to the garden eat worms
Long thin slimy ones
Short fat fuzzy ones
Gooey gooey ooey ooey worms

They are two very different things. Forgiving allows you to not be angry any more.  Forgetting is virtually impossible and makes it almost impossible to allow you to trust that person again (I say almost because anything is possible).  I heard the following song on Pandora and it's as if she is singing my story. Poignant lyrics.

What I Wouldn't Give by Holly Brook

Feeling like I can't forgive, but I want to
it's like I don't know how to live, I’m afraid to
I used to think take them as they come, without hesitations, no
now it's like my head is filled with lies, and persuasions

as the sun begins to fall I hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone

what I wouldn't give just to forget
so I can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

I am feeling dissonant, and distracted
the toxic chemicals are spilling in my head and they're bleeding deadly reactions

and as the moon begins to rise he shows me all the colors that I’m hiding I’m hiding myself

what I wouldn't give just to forget
what I wouldn't give to get some rest
so I can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

am I desperately losing this fight
when I should really be choosing my flight
take me now

what I wouldn't give just to forget
what I wouldn't give to get some rest
so I can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

what I wouldn't give just to forget
what I wouldn't give to get some rest
what I wouldn't give just to forget
so I can remember how to live

What a fun filled weekend and I still can't sleep.

Friday - Tiger (renamed from "Oh Canada") and I decided to go get dinner + drinks and document our epic journey to seek trouble in one night.  The goal was to capture photos of us with people that we'd tap.  Hee hee.  We also made some sensual videos with our food while eating our Mexican food.  I think our fellow diners got a kick out of watching the free show.  Haha. Honey joined up with us after we were done having dinner and we went bar hopping.  On the way, we met these two very cute and taken guys in a band.  One of them looks a lot like Capt Sparrow and the other one is just pretty.  Then there were these crazy dudes at Brouwers that shoved a tongue down Tiger's throat while I was trying to take a photo.  We fibbed to him and his buddies that we were hairdressers.  The night ended with Honey dancing with some crazy old bicyclist in the parking lot and her tripping over the bike and falling on her head.  We ended up taking a cab back to my place where I made us scallion pancakes and tea and Honey passed out on my dog's comfy bed.  Haha.

Saturday - went walking around the water channel in Fremont with SurfBoy.  He made us sandwiches to eat before hand.  It was 80+ degrees and just absolutely a gorgeous day in Seattle.  Then I met up with Tiger and bunch of her friends at Gasworks Park to have a beer.  It was so nice to be by the water and enjoying the grass under our toes.  It was funny that people didn't know me until Tiger mentioned them my twitter handle.  Haha.  I am surrounded by geeks and I love the world I live in.  I had to leave at about 5:15 to go get myself dolled up for a jazz show downtown with work BF, his new BF, another one of work BF's friend, and Powerade.  I selected a sexy black little dress for the occasion since I've wanted to dress up for a while.  Jazz is awesome.  I forgot how much I enjoyed it.  Work BF's new BF is super cool and super nice.  Yaye!

Sunday - Helped my brother with his kids while they are at kiddie swim lessons.  Did not know that they make tiny swim caps for babies.  Did not know that babies under 11 months can hold their breath under water.  it was really fun to be a professional aunt.  His kids really like me :)  Then I went to get myself a pair of super cute pink sandals cuz it's so dang nice out again and my piggies wanted to come out.  I wore them to go kayaking at Green Lake with SurfBoy.  It was really fun being out on the lake and I felt like because I'm fit the experience of kayaking was even much more enjoyable.  We had a good time in the sun, chatted and laughed pretty much the whole time.  Since I was hungry, I suggested we go get food so we went to a Greek restaurant in the U-District and it also happen to have a street fair going on.  The Greek food was soooo good.  I forgot how much I like Avgo Lemono soup as I used to make it often at home.  We decided to walk around the street fair after we ate and stumbled upon this awesome artist.  We each bought 3 prints (will post photos later).  This guy's art is so brilliant and I love his style.  It was definitely a good find and will help inspire me to do more of my own art.  It was about closing time so we quickly walked the fair and went back to my place to watch a movie I borrowed from SuZ - Lady Vengence (AWESOME movie!). 

This has been one activity filled weekend.  I haven't had a full weekend like this in ever.  I love it.  I want more of it.

Even though I'm kinda tired, now I can't sleep... and my back muscles are a bit sore from the kayaking (worth it though).  Nite :)

I was just listening to one of my stations on Pandora and for the first time I carefully listened to the lyrics to Sarah McLachlan's "Stupid".  It describes exactly how I felt between May '07 and Jan '08.  A long time to feel that sorrowful.

This girl holds tickets to see Queensryche and Dokken tonight.  OH YES.  I loves The Metal.  LOVES!

Before I moved out to be on my own 4 months ago, this song describes so well how I felt.

I Can't Make You Love Me by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I wont see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
cause I cant make you love me, if you don't